Monthly Archives: July 2007

Needed: Personal Assistant

 
You know what I don’t want to do anymore? I don’t want to try to figure out this damned trip I’m supposed to be taking after Korea. I’m concerned that my head will explode. Or implode. Or otherwise behave in a manner that is not beneficial for my general well-being. I *hate* this sort of thing… why does it have to be so hard? Every time I think I have it sorted, I have to change it again because some portion or another is not working out. AURGH! Aurgh, I say!

Friday's Feast

 

Appetizer
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 being highest) how much do enjoy watching sports on television?

Most of the year I would say about a 3… and that is only if soccer is on. If the Canucks are in the playoffs, that number would jump up to about 8.  If it is March, and I have some beers, make it a 10.

Soup
If you could completely memorize any one work of fiction, which one would you pick?

This is a hard one, mostly because I can’t really see the point of memorizing any work of fiction. But if I could pick any work to memorize, I would actually pick the Bible. I’ll leave it up to you guys to debate whether it is fiction or not. I don’t feel like getting into it tonight.

Salad
What is your favorite breakfast food?

French toast.

Main Course
Name something fun you can do for less than $10.00.

Heh heh heh. Don’t tell ME to grow up… what did YOU think of?

Dessert
How long does it usually take you to fall asleep?

FOREVER! On average, over an hour, but sometimes longer. I’m not good at sleeping. I need lessons or something. 

Why Take a Train?

 
The saying "Getting there is half the fun" became obsolete with the advent of commercial airlines.
  –
Henry J. Tillman

Colbert vs. Rain

 
YES YES YES!!!! Thank you, Stephen Colbert!

Process of Elimination and Other Bright Ideas

 
You know, I should have posted a long time ago that my life was falling apart. Some of you guys have been very helpful. The following ideas came from Mike….
 
forget life goals.  that sounds a bit harsh, but i’m serious.  unless you’re concerned that at the end of life there’s an inquiry into everything you set out to accomplish and explanations are required as to what you may or may not have achieved, the concept of life goals is meaningless.  things change far too easily and without warning.  sure, there may come a time when you feel there’s something you need to achieve or strive for, and when it comes you more than anyone will do everything it takes to make it happen.  but only if it’s something you truly want.  at the moment, you’re not sure about things.  so forcing the situation into some kind of goal simply won’t work.

this doesn’t really help your situation, but i’m getting to that.  the last time we talked you had a whole string of travel destinations lined up.  now the first part of that sounds like its been thrown out the window.  so one option is obviously to skip to the next page.  since you haven’t decided to do just that i get the sense you may not feel ready to jump ahead or like the timing for the next part isn’t right.  here’s where no set goals frees you up in a way, but also makes things very difficult….  the possibilities are endless.  (by the way, there are currently dozens of really cheesy song lyrics that are running through my head while considering your situation, but i’ll save you from further cliches).  since no one is going to tell you where to go and what to do next, consider two things…

 
1. process of elimination – you know what you don’t want to do, so start narrowing down the options even if the list has a hundred, instead of a hundred and fifty. 
 
2. past experience – if you’ve got a handful of things you’re really considering, try to think of what lead you to previously make certain decisions… e.g. what made you go to korea in the first place?
 
or you should revolutionize the choose your own adventure concept for the 21st century. take 3 or 4 of your top options and do them all – or at least part of them.  then set up a website that details the results in a time-lapsed, pay-to-play, cash grab format (video recorded evidence optional).

"if you would like jodi to travel to malaysia and be a beach bum, click 1.  if you would like jodi to continue teaching korean kids, but focus their studies on the communist manifesto, click 2.  if you would like to see jodi purchase a hot air balloon and circum-navigate the globe, click 3."

then when you get to another dead end where you’re not sure what to do, you can have your ever-expanding viewership vote to pick your next set of possible destinations.  people love to exercise their democratic rights, but only if it’s reality tv related.

although didn’t the choose your own adventure books always have at least one ending where the main character was mauled by a tiger or something and you would quickly skip back to the last page and continue reading the other option like you’d never made the bad decision?  hmm, maybe scratch this idea.


 
if all else fails, turn to the magic 8 ball.

all signs point to ‘yes’.

PASSPORT PASSPORT PASSPORT PASSPORT

 
 
My new passport came today. HOORAY!  Philippines, here I come!!

Plan B is Starting to Shape Up

 
The details are still hazy, but I think I might have it worked out. This time, it scares me how much it relies on ME to get things done… and how much lies with other people (mostly one other person). I’m not 100% sure yet, but there are some upsides and downsides to Plan B. The major downside is I won’t be going to Canada. The major upside is that between September and December, I will travel through something like 16 countries, including Korea and England.
 
I’ll let you know more when *I* know more.

Thanks Brendan

 
Still and all, why bother? Here’s my answer. Many people need desperately to receive this message: I feel and think much as you do, care about many of the things you care about, although most people do not care about them. You are not alone.

– Kurt Vonnegut

Dear Abby…

 
I’ve gotten some friendly advice via email after I posted my "What to Do? What to do?" mini-crisis blog.
 
::FROM JOHN::
 
you could be a garbage person.  you could ride on
the back of the truck and throw the trash in the
truck. that would be a kick ass job! what do you
think? or a nuclear waste taste tester? you could
get super powers!  or one of those people that just
smell feet for a living?  but seriously, you should go
to ireland and visit B and then get a job at the
Guinness plant… then send me some free stuff!!!
just do it… stop thinking and do it!
 
Although not very helpful, it did make me laugh.  So, thanks for that John (also, thanks for adding to my Potter experience by whispering "Balls!" while they were in the room with all the… you know. Balls.)
 
::FROM CAREY::
 
I just read your blog. 
 
I completely relate to what you’re saying about that kinda empty feeling you have when you don’t have a "goal" to achieve.  We spend our whole lives working towards something… graduate high school, graduate college, university… get a good job, get married, have kids… blah blah blah.  When we spend our whole lives always working towards something, and then that moment when we have achieved that goal arrives, a sense of panic sets in.  For me, I felt like "what is the purpose? what is the point? I don’t get it, what am I actually doing here on this planet?"  For me, I had to stop and just realize where I was, and what I was doing and realize I am happy with the way things are right now.  I didn’t HAVE to have a next goal (but I do) but I did have to just breath and appreciate that I was actually LIVING the original goal right here right now and I choose to enjoy it.
 
I think you didn’t get a job code because you will be good at anything and everything you do.  I think you don’t know where to go or what to do next because you haven’t gone there and done it yet.  I think you are going about it the right way, cross off the things you know you DON’T want to do off the list.  Do not do them.  Don’t even make them your fall back.  I do think you should go to a place where you will have a better chance of finding love… like the UK or something… It must be pretty hard to find love in Korea!  And when you get to that place (hell, just spin the globe and put your finger down and go there!) do something you never thought of doing before.  Maybe you will go to get your advanced theatre degree in London? Maybe you can be an English translator in France?  Maybe you can be a tour guide in Switzerland?  To sum up my advice succinctly, pick a destination, pack your bag and go.  You will be successful at what ever life throws at you.  I don’t think you have apathy for your life’s direction, in fact, you are one of the few people I have ever known who has taken her life by the horns and rode away.
 
You don’t have to know what you want to be when you grow up, because you will be hundreds of things and the fun part: you won’t even know you want them till they happen.
 
Anyway, enough preachy blah blah… just don’t fret about it too much, enjoy life and just dream of impossible things… you never know what will happen.
 
((((HUGS))))
Carey
 
PS. If you ever do want to come home, you can always stay with me!  I want you to come home too, but it is not time.
 
 
John and Carey (and my moms, actually) seem to be telling me the same thing (although in profoundly different ways). Don’t worry so much. Just go ahead and do it, and it will work out in the end. I think they are all absolutely right… it is just hard to have so much faith in myself to make the best decision right now.

Another Korean Wedding

 
I forgot to mention that a while ago now I got to go to another Korean wedding. This time we were not late. And it wasn’t as strange. Well, I still thought it was strange, but this time it was "Catholic strange" and not "Korean strange".  I’ve never been to a Catholic mass or any sort of ceremony, so I wasn’t sure what to expect. I thought it sucked – you have to stand up and sit down so much that I couldn’t go to sleep. Mostly what I got out of it: I don’t want a Korean wedding or a Catholic one.